17 5 / 2014
So tumblairian friends. .I’m recently single.
The end part of the relationship was overly complicated, and emotional but in the end..
I’ve been told it was for the best.
The only problem with that is how much I miss him. .
My heart is one of those that looks for the good and beauty in people even if they don’t deserve it. I forgive everything and never really stand up for myself. .
This may sound grand and amazing, but it’s gotten me into quite a few interesting situations. All I end up doing is hating myself for not doing right by my self.
So I asked him not to contact me, blocked him from just about every account I have (haven’t figured out Google mail yet ???) and deleted his numbers before my heart had a chance to do its thing.
Now, I’m sitting on the couch with my dogs -doing their best to keep me company/warm, while I ball my eyes out watching The Secret Life Of Walter Middy -not sad in the vaguest of ways, just really beautiful and a bit on the romantic side -ugh..
My heart has forgiven him and wants to see him again, look in his eyes and go back to how things used to be. . But my head knows the memory of the pain he caused and wants me to keep my distance. I never thought I’d be in this position. .help ?
No regrets right …sighs dramatically
15 5 / 2014
Is Sexting cheating ?
- Some think it may not be, but when the partner in question travels for months on end and the only connection you can have is through the phone, sharing pics of your lives and chatting away during your busy days. Don't you think it means more maybe ..calling someone other than yourself his "Angel" and saying he misses them..(among other things)
- I think it is..any thoughts ?
05 5 / 2014
I think my emotions are busy trying to play catch up for the last 6 years of my life. So now, instead of people coming and going and me not really caring on an emotional level, I meet the a man who I can’t stand to leave when I’ve spent all day with him. .
Maybe it’s because I don’t want to feel the way I do when he’s been away for a while, separated and alone..
Maybe it’s because his soul is warm and familiar and all I want to do is soak in his happiness.
What ever it is. .I feel stupid.
I used to see couples doing cute little things and falling all over the place for one another and I’d never understand it. “You lived your life without him for 20 years, surely you can manage with out him now” is what I used to say. .how naieve right ?
Attraction is molecular but, what about love ..
I hate/love love. It’s really beautiful. .and I’m not